Me again? Aww come one girls, where are you guys? why am I the only one blogging?
I am again, in Cyberjaya. It's almost the weekend, wait.. it 's already the weekend.
I am awake, surprisingly. Well partly because I didn't use much of my energy. I was on mc today but i couldn't just sit around at home, panas bontot jadinya. So i had my hair rebonded again. hehe. Dalm, there goes, drifting away from my main point again.Ok, berbalik... my perfect illusion.
It was in my dream. I am sure when I describe this, it won't look so perfect. You have to be there (in my dreams) to really feel it! It was a waterfall, a combination of Mother's nature & human's masterpiece. The water was green, somewhat a shade you seldom see. Again, you have to be there to actually picture it. A lot of trees, and flowers. Fishes, monkeys(???), now that's the part I did not really understand. Why monkeys? But nevermind, they did not bug me at all. I felt very confused at first. I felt scared because I was new at that place. But all of sudden, I had someone next to me. He held me and took care of me. We walked around and the next thing I knew, we were both at the peak of the waterfall, preparing to take a dive. Believe me, it would be a very long fall if we were to jump. Again, he confided me and held me throughout the fall. I felt safe, and when we finally reached the bottom, he made sure he was holding me tight and you know what? At that moment, all that matters was just me and him. Like I didn't care about anything else. It was a beautiful feeling, something I never felt in my real life. Perhaps, I will never be able to feel this for the rest of my life.
Then i woke up.It dawned on me, that I love him. I never realized that feeling before this. After that dream, I understand something new. I know that he will take care of me with all his might, like what he did in my dreams. He would never let me go. Now that's my perfect illusion. It will never happen in real life cos our real life is never so kind. I will sometimes cry, I will sometimes weaken, but as long as I can hold on, I definitely will. Maybe one day we will not be together anymore, but he is one person I know to love me as much as he can and he deserves so much more from me. Tunggu eh, I will also try my best for you. I know you are trying so hard, and I appreciate every single thing, though at times I feel like giving up.
So dear God, please make things easier for us, for I love him so much. Please wash away all the bad things and grant us that perfect illusion.
I finally make it public that I love him, but he will never know, will he? Typical me. Sigh~
I am again, in Cyberjaya. It's almost the weekend, wait.. it 's already the weekend.
I am awake, surprisingly. Well partly because I didn't use much of my energy. I was on mc today but i couldn't just sit around at home, panas bontot jadinya. So i had my hair rebonded again. hehe. Dalm, there goes, drifting away from my main point again.Ok, berbalik... my perfect illusion.
It was in my dream. I am sure when I describe this, it won't look so perfect. You have to be there (in my dreams) to really feel it! It was a waterfall, a combination of Mother's nature & human's masterpiece. The water was green, somewhat a shade you seldom see. Again, you have to be there to actually picture it. A lot of trees, and flowers. Fishes, monkeys(???), now that's the part I did not really understand. Why monkeys? But nevermind, they did not bug me at all. I felt very confused at first. I felt scared because I was new at that place. But all of sudden, I had someone next to me. He held me and took care of me. We walked around and the next thing I knew, we were both at the peak of the waterfall, preparing to take a dive. Believe me, it would be a very long fall if we were to jump. Again, he confided me and held me throughout the fall. I felt safe, and when we finally reached the bottom, he made sure he was holding me tight and you know what? At that moment, all that matters was just me and him. Like I didn't care about anything else. It was a beautiful feeling, something I never felt in my real life. Perhaps, I will never be able to feel this for the rest of my life.
Then i woke up.It dawned on me, that I love him. I never realized that feeling before this. After that dream, I understand something new. I know that he will take care of me with all his might, like what he did in my dreams. He would never let me go. Now that's my perfect illusion. It will never happen in real life cos our real life is never so kind. I will sometimes cry, I will sometimes weaken, but as long as I can hold on, I definitely will. Maybe one day we will not be together anymore, but he is one person I know to love me as much as he can and he deserves so much more from me. Tunggu eh, I will also try my best for you. I know you are trying so hard, and I appreciate every single thing, though at times I feel like giving up.
So dear God, please make things easier for us, for I love him so much. Please wash away all the bad things and grant us that perfect illusion.
I finally make it public that I love him, but he will never know, will he? Typical me. Sigh~
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