oh muse, pour me some ideas now. I feel like writing, but there's nothing to write for now.
They say, you lose your passion when you lose your sadness.
So why am I numb right now? I'm supposed to be able to write endlessly if you see the state I am in now.
Colleagues tought I'm sick, friends thought i've been busy when actually I've been hiding in my secret cave. Who says only guys have their caves? Now, that's not true.
My heart is torn. I'm about to make decisions that will alter my life to a great extent. What used to be a norm might be something abnormal after this. What had been my priority might not matter anymore, and what had been my joy might make me cry after this.
So i thought to myself, what benefits will I get from this tormenting decision? I can't answer that. My mind became a total blank, nada. But somehow, I know this would be coming someday, and maybe this day is someday.
And I thought again, am I leaving my pot of gold behind because I've finally found my diamond in the raft? Well, not really. I did however find something similar to that,but again I guess my life is bounded to be sad. The sun won't shine until night. I don't think I'll even get this almost-diamond. So what do I have to lose? Both my pot of gold and my almost-diamond? I am so confused, I feel like hiding away in my secret cave now.
I am so down, I think I should stop writing. Good night.
One day, I'll read this entry and I know i'll be laughing so hard for being so emotional. And guys, stop reading, you won't understand a thing.
They say, you lose your passion when you lose your sadness.
So why am I numb right now? I'm supposed to be able to write endlessly if you see the state I am in now.
Colleagues tought I'm sick, friends thought i've been busy when actually I've been hiding in my secret cave. Who says only guys have their caves? Now, that's not true.
My heart is torn. I'm about to make decisions that will alter my life to a great extent. What used to be a norm might be something abnormal after this. What had been my priority might not matter anymore, and what had been my joy might make me cry after this.
So i thought to myself, what benefits will I get from this tormenting decision? I can't answer that. My mind became a total blank, nada. But somehow, I know this would be coming someday, and maybe this day is someday.
And I thought again, am I leaving my pot of gold behind because I've finally found my diamond in the raft? Well, not really. I did however find something similar to that,but again I guess my life is bounded to be sad. The sun won't shine until night. I don't think I'll even get this almost-diamond. So what do I have to lose? Both my pot of gold and my almost-diamond? I am so confused, I feel like hiding away in my secret cave now.
I am so down, I think I should stop writing. Good night.
One day, I'll read this entry and I know i'll be laughing so hard for being so emotional. And guys, stop reading, you won't understand a thing.
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