HAPPY 2010!

As I sit down listening to Jason Derulo's song (this is irrelevant), and I think to myself, what is New Year? Why do people make a big fuss about it? What's there to celebrate? Is it about turning older, reflecting wasted times, regretting the past, or sobbing over unfulfilled resolutions?

For an optimist, a new year means a new page and a good one. This is the time to improve or to change, to succeed and to reach the ultimate goal, whatever it might be.
This reminds me of myself when I was 17, I was the optimist. I was a believer. I remember writing down my resolution (in front of the tv because I was back in kg, nak mampos ke keluar mlm tgk bunga api???) and I planned to work on it. Life was high on hopes and dreams and I tried my best to make them happen. Remembering the zest and energy I had at that time, I have to say, I am proud of myself.

So I ask myself, after 10 years am I still the same person? Do I still look forward to celebrating new year like I used to? Or will I just sit in front of the tv and watch the countdown, fireworks, concert, etc?

I remember some new year eves surrounded by friends and I felt so alive! Walking in heels around KL city for hours did not seem like a big problem. If you ask me to do that now, bole blah! haha!

I realized that I am no longer that enthusiastic, hopeful person. However for me this ain't a bad thing. 10 years ago, I had to be that hopeful person trying to plan my life for the next 10 years because I still could not find the right direction. Now that 10 years has passed by, I don't have to be that busy anymore planning on it. What I wished for when I was 17, I guess they are all here already. Though it's not exactly like how I planned it, I am just thankful with how my life turned out to be. I am thankful for my husband, my baby, my family, my wonderful friends (more than just friends actually), my career, etc. Still, there are rooms for improvement, a lot of it of course and 2010 will be the time to work on it.

This year I will celebrate new year moderately. 10 years down the road has taught me to do so. Maybe driving around in the car with Mr Y and baby rockstar while watching fireworks will do. Knowing that I have all my loved ones around me - all in place is already good enough. Now I know that this is what a happy new year means.

So to my dearest ladies, to whom I dedicate this post (Nadiah, Natt, Nana, Shazu, Fozz) , I am wishing you a HAPPY NEW YEAR. need not it be a blastful one, just wonderful and meaningful. I pray only for your well being and also for another beautiful year of friendship. I will hang on to our memories of celebrating new year together dolu-dolu ok! giler rock ah kite!

To the readers (ade ke pon? hihi) wishing all of you a happy new year coz everyone deserves it! -END-